For more than 1.5 year now since I started my company “Coddiwompling”, I have been feeling lonely about my decision.
Notwithstanding all the doubts and uncertainties that I faced on the day to day basis and the worry of making ends meet, I constantly remind myself to trust my abilities and intellect and continue to bet on me. While I am beginning to see some fruits of my efforts, I would still occasionally feel unsure.
Is this a life worth living? Will I ever regret it? Do I really have what it takes to thrive?
Little did I know (for my close friends who knew that I am a fan of Kpop), today one of my favourite Kpop girl’s group, Itzy released their single “Bet on me”.
I cannot describe the feeling I had within when I first heard the song and read the lyrics as it played while I was doing my morning exercise.
All I can say is I was overwhelmed with emotions and still am every time I played the song. I can sense and feel every beats of the song and the lyrics whispering to my soul to “bet on me” …
Here is a section of the chorus …
“I close my eyes, dreaming in my head.
I see a faint light.
I want to run there.
Run. Run. Run.
I say, trust me.
I talk to myself.
Do I believe me?
I can’t figure it out yet.
But I hear this voice inside me.
I’m going to follow it.
Still, I choose me.
There’s no other way.
I bet on me.
It can get scary, but …
Without the courage to fall, you will never fly …”
It feels like the spirit of coddiwompling gets reignited within me as I listened to the chorus.
Tears rolled uncontrollably down my cheeks.
I have never thought a Kpop song can touch and rekindle the very essence of my being and make me cried. But it did.
I don’t know if it is because I am getting old and thus getting more easily emotional.
It is because I am getting more attuned to my senses and aware of what they are telling me when they are speaking to me.
It is because it is my long period of hardship finally finding an outlet to express so precisely through the Itzy’s song.
Regardless, “Bet on me” will forever be engraved into my being. It left a mark unlike no other song can within my heart.
Inspiration truly can come from any place …
I hope you will like the song as much as I do.
I hope the song will inspire you like it has for me to live a coddiwompling life filled with purpose and meaning.
Above all, I hope the song will always remind you that you owe it to yourself in this lifetime to always always always bet on you.
Enjoy …